Whoa...~ im saying it LOUD!! do u hear it?
fuuuhhhh..fuuuhhhh..dah berabuk blog aku neh !
dah bersarang..merayap2 labah labah sume.. ;)
hurmm...so make it short !
dengan banggenye aku nak gtau..aku dah kawen ! ~ On 1st April 2010 harituh..
sepatutnye mengikut plan asal..our solemnization will be on 3rd April..
~ heh! bukan kes tak sabar okeh..tp because of thingy2 yang tak dpt dielakkan..
nikah koboi i can say ! venue was at PPUM ~ wad ICU.. hurmmmm...
hurmm..~ change mood ~ (T,T)
sgt la sedeh..
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Khamis,1st April 2010
i was about to hang out with my mak n ayah that time..
i think nak cr last minute items for wedding preparation kot..ngam ngam soi baru kuar rumah..i got a call from shahril n duhh..sooo touching! he was crying and asked me immediately come to PPUM ..i was like .."hah! what happened?"..
a lot of things played inside my cute brain box ! ~ cute keh?
whereas..baru semalam aku lepak lepak ngan his mom while cut her nails ..
that time mmg sgt bengkak kaki die..tp still aku rase ..yeps..she can fight!
.malam tu jugak her few friends dtg melawat..ade yg menangis..ade yg mintak maaf ..but as usual..she was act ceria..hepi..sempat melawak even she had no energy at all..~ mama..i salute yu..indeed! mama mmg tabah!
~ then smpi spital..aku trus berlari masuk ke ICU..i saw shahril was crying at one of corner..he cant talk..he cant say anything to me..then aku trus jumpe his mom..haih..the sebak~est part was ~
his mama immediately senyum and asked me so many sequences of question regards with wedding preparation..
"zura..mak mana?"..immediately my mak trus rapat ke katil..
she continue asked whether evrything was settled or instead..
and still continue..
"papa...baju papa time kawen along tak amik lagi"
"zura..yang tu dah siap?.." i was like ~
~ wuuuuuuuuu..mama..u dont have to think all those things at this moment please..~
after a short discussion among ayah and shahril's fam..
they got consensus utk cepatkan our nikah..
whoa! i looked my self..jeans and tight shirt..dah macam nak ke pasar malam!
so bit rushing..sup sap sup sap..me n shahril like intelligent chicken run sambar kereta trus feeling feeling Michael Schumacher balik rumah n salin baju nikah..
and same goes to mak ayah tp mak ayah aku tak la lari balik umah utk salin baju nikah..
cume dorg went to Jawi for kidnapped Tok Kadi .. ;P
hurmm..arrived at spital around 5 smthing..hurmm..wah ! what a surprise!
masuk masuk bilik icu tu..dah terbentang carpet and small stage and pillows..
khas utk our solemnozation..~ tengs for those who helped me arranging all these ~
right after nikah..both of us trus salam mama..that was my first time aku panggil "mama"..~ eh tak la..tipu je..sebelum2 ni aku ade gedik gedik terbabas terpanggil mama..then aku malu sndiri..hehe..walaupon mama mmg byk kali bahasekan diri die as mama..tp lidah aku kelu malu nak panggil mama..hehe..
right after that..mama was transfered to gine ward..
i can hear her voice lagi that time..borak skit2 dgn all relatives..
pas maghrib..mama was slowly unconscious..
only her deep breath can be hear..smpi la around kul 10 lebih..
nurse was took off patient monitor machine and all the tubes..
she said..there's nothing can be done unless pray for miracle n recite a yassin next to her..
time tuh..i saw shahril was strong enough..he keep reciting yassin next to mama..same goes to papa..around pkul 1 pagi..all guests were left..
tinggal lah kami bertige continue reading yassin..
3am..nafas mama semakin slow..jarak jarak..
until 6 ++ am..semakin slow n slow..
8++am..Jumaat..mama was passed away ..
i dont know why..
i cant stand my self..ive cried cried and cried..
can u imagine..how close we were..
since aku dgn shahril..i've won her heart compared to shahril..
tiap2 minggu kami balik bersame dr putrajaya ke kl..gosip itu ini..
( and of cos ade gosip psal you ye..Incik Husband )..heheh..
wherever aku kesana sini..soping ke ape ke..mesti dgn aku..
smpi kan if mama travel abroad..she will buy me a lot of gifts..huhu..
smpaikan shahril get jeles okeh.. ;P
haih..she leave us sgt sgt cpt i guess..hurmmm..
but..evrythg happened for a reason.. :)
al fatihah mama..
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